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Well HELLO there! I know its been a while. Listen, shit happened..then more shit happened.. add a college degree and a baby and shit just keeps happening. BUT THATS LIFE, so i keeps a stash of tissue and wipes to make sure shit dont hit the fan. But enough of all that. Im coming to my favorite place to announce a few things that will be changing at 24. Thats right people... ya girl hit Kobe number and I'd be lying if I said I was suuuuper excited about it. Although Im super blessed and content with how my life is panning out, theres still alotta shit i need to clean up. Im tryna win this championship baby.... i need my lineup to be GREAT! So with that said, heres a few things i need to change in my Kobe year to make that possible. First things first- Im gonna try to refrain from using tabbaco products when enjoying tree. vaporizers and bowls will be used much more. I cant keep subjecting my lungs to pain while trying to reach pleasure! "roll me a joint...white paper white paper- i dont do blunts"-Jay-Z Next, I gotta get all the doubt and worry THE FUCK OUTTA HERE! Sorry to generalize based on zodiac signs-but I am the true definition of a Libra woman. & one of our less glamourous traits is self doubt. I read this in a magazine and Im gonna start implementing it in my daily routine. Every morning when i wake up and look at this post partum baby body, big ass glasses (they Ray Bans tho..dont hate) & crazy ass whatever grade of naturalness of hair i have- I must tell myself Im a bad bitch! I am a soon to be 24 year old woman who has traveled the US (the WORLD is next Craig!) the first to graduate college in my family, I follow my dreams and work for a widely recognizable television network AND had a baby who is the cutest in the entire world! Fuck them doubts boo- you BEEN gettin it so you GOT this!".... Yall like how that sounds or its a bit much?? Aye, they say speak positivity into existence and that is what you receive so hey, its worth giving it a try!! & the last but MOST IMPORTANT change i need to make is MY ATTITUDE TO FUCK SHIT! *deep breath* The fuck shit was at an all time high at 23. And Im realizing to cut the "fuck" off before the "shit" comes into play. Ill break it down for you. I can be super cliche and say "Im the nicest person you'll ever meet...blah blah blah" but seriously- those who have had the opportunity and pleasure to know me/get close to me/be my FRIEND (& thats a whole nother post..)- you know that i will and have always gone above and beyond for them.I dont have a "no" feature. "Ivana, can you pick me up from work-YES. Ivana, can you help me with____-sure no problem! Ivana, im having a ______ i want you to come- Girl, Ill be there! Ivana, do you know somebody who can ________- Yup, heres his number, ill go with you,dont worry about it, youll be fine. Ivana, you got a minute- realistically NO, but YES girl wassup"...... (excuse this next cliche ass statement) WHAT DO YALL EVER DO FOR IVANA? Now, I'd be foolish if I played to victim role cause honey, Ivana aint no saint BUT I always put other people feelings into consideration. THIS IS WHERE I GET PERSONAL- LET ME TELL YALL "FRIENDS" SOMETHING. I AM A HUMAN BEING WITH FEELINGS- I AM NOT A POLITE LITTLE ROBOT WHO DISHES OUT NICE GESTURES AND EXPECTS NOTHING IN RETURN. BEING A FRIEND IS A CHOICE- NOT AN OBLIGATION. SO WHEN IM NICE, LOYAL, CARING, CONSIDERATE AND LOVING TOWARDS YOU AND YOU DONT RECIPROCATE THOSE BACK- I CHOOSE TO CUT YOU THE FUCK OFF. This may sound so ...whatever- but I support EVERYTHING my "FRIENDS" DO. I have a baby and bitches get funny. PLEASE NOTE THAT IF I HAVE KNOWN YOU FOR 2+ YEARS AND YOU HAVENT SEEN ME OR MY CHILD- ITS A PROBLEM. IF THE ONLY TIME I SPEAK TO YOU IS VIA INSTAGRAM- ITS A PROBLEM. IF YOU MADE PROMISES TO ME AND RENIG ON YA SHIT-ITS A FUCKIN PROBLEM. I go out of my way to make sure people feel my warmth, my friendship and my love and i dont get nothing back. Yall have permenately hurt and damaged my feelings. You dont treat people like that.... how do you expect good to come to you when you treat your FRIENDS like shit??? SO YOU AND YOU .. AND YUP YOU TOO... FUCK OFF! YOU ARE A WEAK LINK TO MY TEAM. I WILL NO LONGER SUPPORT PEOPLE WHO WHEN ITS TIME TO SUPPORT ME "SHIT CAME UP" "OHH, I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU" "IMMA COME UP SOON" " I DECICED TO GO BACK HOME.. I PROMISE ILL COME DOWN IN 2 WEEKS" "HEY, LETS GO OUT" THEN YOU NEVER CALL BACK "SORRY I SHOWED UP TO YA BABYSHOWER 3 HOURS LATE/DIDNT COME AT ALL" "YOU MY NIGGA FOR LIFE" BUT ONLY WHEN IT BENIFITS YOU " I WANNA SEE YOU AND THE BABY SO BAD" BUT NEVER SHOW UP ASS BITCHES. I'm tired of excusing your inconsiderate behavior. WE ARE ALL BUSY, but you make time for what you want. A phone call dont hurt, a facetime wont kill you and a visit aint posion. Its called being someones FRIEND. Ive been nothing but loyal to all of my friends. & this the thanks i get? Ungrateful ass people. But THIS YEAR, I wont let yall hurt my feelings no more. You dont wanna be my friend, cool- it cost you nothin. pay me no mind. But Im a grown ass woman and with that comes grown woman panties- so im putting them on. Those who have made me question my friendship, my love and whether it was ever worth giving it to you, have been completely removed. Dont mean I wont love you..but ill do it from a distance! But I'm turning 24 this year and like Kobe, I'm ona mission to be GREAT. & to be great, you have to have a solid foundation and great support. So for all my people that hasnt turned the cheek on me, check up on me and mine, call me.. CAUSE IM STILL THE SAME PERSON. A BABY AINT A ILLNESS..come to see me, hang out with me and most importantly LOVE ME-no worries, I signed ya contract..you still on the team. THE REST OF YALL FREE AGENTS & Dutchess,Swishers,White Owls & Bluntvilles...TAKE YA TALENTS ELSEWHERE. I CANT FIND A USE FOR YOU HERE. -Kobevana <3